I Love You More Than Life To Disappear, Believe It

Rumors are spread, she can't take it.

She wishes people would stop.

But, they'll never change as long as they're breathing.

Only one knife is needed to spill their blood, she thinks.

Her hands are the only thing there to cut them.

Blood runs cold beyond the dark prison for her violent visions.

They shall all pay, she says, her voice overly horrendous

She waits for the sun to set.

As black falls over the sky, she leaves her house, knife clutched in her right hand.

At first, they were the killer, she was the victim.

Now they will all get a chance to play in the victim's chair.

There's no fear in her as she walks into the little party, dressed in her black and white dress.

Get ready for the worst time of your life, she will become their worst nightmare.

Eyes of the ones that killed her self-esteem look at her with disgust.

She can already hear them talking about how much they didn't like her, she defiantly couldn't take it.

She hears the voices in her head say, Stick it in the back of their heads.

She pulls up her knife, a smile creeping up to her red lips.

Everyone stared eyed-wide at her when they saw her knife go up, shiny from the lights above.

She kills the lights a little but only enough to where she could still see those she despised.

The show is now beginning.

Music symphonies played as she went to her sinister ways.

She's only human, she couldn't help her hatred for those who hated her for no reason.

Breaking the silence, screams are heard, crying follows.

She holds up her knife again then strikes down a few times over and over again.

She could feel the red fluid fly up to her face in the half-dark room.

She watches as their eyes close.

No sympathy is found in her.

The room is now a horror show.

Look at how ugly they have become.

What happened to their perfectness?

Their pretty faces are now gone.

Dead.

Why must I be a murder tramp?, she asks herself with a hint of laughter.

She dances around the bodies, proud of her accomplishment.

Bored all of a sudden, she crawls over them to reach the exit, laughing as she did.

What a sweet sound it was, enchanting.

She is out in the cold now.

She looks down at the red splattered on her black and white dress.

As she leaves for home, she smiles a red lipstick smile and thinks, “Wasn't that just fun?”

She's now at her house.

She sneaks to her room, gets in bed and closes her eyes.

After a while, she quickly opens them, sweat covering her forehead, her lips quivering, she's crying.

“Just a dream., she says to herself.

She gets out of bed.

Gasp.

The black and white dress now drenched in red, covers her body.

Black high heeled shoes with bows, cover her feet.

Red lipstick is on her full lips.

A knife encased in red, lays on her bed.

It wasn't a dream, it was real., she says to herself.

Fear takes over her as she lays back down to sleep.

She really is a worst nightmare.

I wish i could see her again

I want to hear her voice just one more time

Refresh my memory

I want to remember her

But everything i knew about her is starting to fade.

I would give anything just to see her once more

I love her so much

I cry for her every night

I want my little sister her

Why did she have to perish at such a young age?

Why...did i have to lose her?

I wish for her to be here but she'll never come

She's now trapped in death and i couldn't help her...

I couldn't save her

I blame myself at times for what happened to her

Although i know i didn't do anything,

I still can't stop the guilt going through my veins

I just want to see her before i perish as well.

I'll always love her

She'll always be my sister

Invitations in my room.

There are reservations only made for me and you.

I've been waiting here for you.

Look in my eyes, boy.

I'll love you forever.

Even though they make fools of us together.

The sunlight is fading as we're running just as fast as we can to our secret place.

It's finally night time,

No one to get in between us,

No one to talk about us.

As long as I'm here,

Kiss me,

Promise me to pass time.

As I hold onto your hand,

Dance with me,

On these plastic tears surrounding us.

When I put my arms around you,

Tumble to the ground.

Now I can say, “I think we're alone now.”

My grip is tight around you as yours is around me.

The beating of your heart is the only sound I hear and I want it to stay that way.

But when we have to part, as twilight fades, remember me.

Be still in my heart and may I be still in yours.

I don't want you to leave, I'll miss you too much.

I'll never forget you when the sun rises.

You are my one and only true love.

At least we won't feel alone for the night until morning when we disappear.

When night falls over the light blue sky again,

I'll be waiting for you.

Now,

Reflect this kiss to wish me goodnight.

Remember,

You were always something to die for.

I saw before that romance was breaking every heart in two.

I never thought I would experience it.

Now,

I finally did.

I really wish I didn't.

You hurt me badly and I wish I was never with you.

Our relationship was a distater.

It seemed like I was being manipulated by you.

I thought we would last by all the "I love you" you spoke to me daily.

But when you said we needed to break up,

I started to believe that you always spoke your fake I love yous without meaning.

Now I see your mouth was never one to trust.

Since that day,

I've tried sewing the crack in my heart.

But every time I see you,

It tears again.

What am I to do?

I'm trying to turn away from what you are.

The heart breaker everyone will hate sooner or later.

I drew the last piece of my now broken heart.

I know for sure you will never have control over me again.

Just as I thought that,

A hand over my eyes was pulling me back from trying to find my one true love

Oh wait,

It was just you.

Why do you keep doing this to me?

You might as well kill me now,

So I can stop suffering.

After you broke my heart,

My mind kept thinking about you.

I thought I would never get over you.

My eyes could never close again

I should cut my wrist and black my eyes so I can sleep again.

When the sharpness of the blade ripped open my flesh,

Tears were finally brought to my sleepless eyes.

You are so cold hearted,

So cruel.

I noticed me starting to fade as I followed you.

Your boyish notions always turned into false emotions.

You cut me so deep, my belief is defiantly gone.

I lived in your shadows for too long, always trying to please you.

You might as well bash my head against a wall now,

So I can know how stupid I was to fall for you.

I kept torturing myself by asking why.

See for yourself.

The scars are there on my arms,

They won't die,

They don't lie.

Your apologies are all left unsaid.

With the help of my spirit,

I found you out.

Now,

You can hate me as I turn away